It’s been a while since I have written, and that is because I have been battling with 24-7 “Morning Sickness”!!! I could not be happier to be this miserable.
We got the amazing news on April 6th that our pregnancy test was positive. It was the looooooongest morning I can remember. Bloodwork at 6:30 am, and we didn’t get the call until almost noon.
Bryan had to work, and poor Chase was my only distraction…
When my nurse finally called and I saw the caller ID my heart began pounding, and for a second I didn’t know if I should answer….but I did!
Little did I know, this was just the beginning of an epic battle to stay positive (both mentally and on the stick!) I have been keeping a log of my symptoms, particularly the scary ones, so that I can have piece of mind if they ever happen again. For example:
(Get ready for a little TMI…)On Wednesday the 18th when I wiped in the bathroom the tissue was FILLED with pink blood. I. PANICKED. In my mind it was all happening again. After all, this was exactly how each miscarriage began….with blood in the bathroom. I tried flushing the toilet, forgetting that I was at school and YOU HAVE TO HOLD THE HANDLE FOREVER….the toilet ended up spinning/refusing to flush and there I was…staring at the pink tissue, screaming and cursing at the toilet.
When I finally got back to the classroom my coworker came in and knew something was wrong. I blurted out the words “there was blood when I wiped” and she knew…she had been through the same thing. I started to cry. Thank God for Nicole because she spoke to our Vice Principal and I was able to leave. I got to RMA within a half hour (hysterically sobbing the entire way), and they squeezed me in for and ultrasound to see what was going on. After all that anxiety, and all that sadness, I SAW AND HEARD THE HEARTBEAT! It was amazing, and it was the first time. My doctor took a good look but couldn’t find a reason for the bleeding. It happens sometimes, and it is more common than you realize. In fact, I know two people that are currently pregnant that experienced the same bleeding. I am still learning not to assume the worst.
This would happen once more, and there would and will be discharge and pains that makes me anxious, but we are 8 almost 9 weeks and I am happy to report that our little boy is still growing strong!